Ok... Scratch that... I never felt that. Or I did? Did I?? If I didn't, so how da hell I know that? Movies? Series? I am good at watching... Does that all I am good at? Observing from the distance? Seeing others living my dream? My romance...
NO! I can be so much better. So much more to other human being. I can make another person happy. I can help him grow. Or maybe I can't? Never tried that... But I believe, that I can be good woman to a man. I am so much more...
Do You know what I missed the most? Not the kisses or sex. Oh... Who I am trying to fool? Of course I missed that. I missed the touch on my leg... on my arms... on my stomach... His fingers in my hair... The kisses... But I missed the thing I never had. Well, at least from the person I had sex with... The deep connection. The connection then You can feel another person without touches. I read about it. I watched that in movies. But never felt that. So sad then You think about it. I wanted to try everything so fast, that didn't knew what I am missing... Of course, after awhile, when I actually became a little bit something of conscious woman, I finally admit, that all I was missing is connection. And sex... Sex would be nice too.
Still... I met a man on the train...